The first year of my cancer treatment, I was actually kind of numb. The doctors tell you about all the possible side effects that can possible happen, and I wondered how my body would handle it all.
I was stable with my depression, I was now remarried and recently got a promotion at work. I was grateful for all the recovery I had, because it made me that much stronger to deal with another monster in my life. I took leave from work and started chemotherapy in April of 2021. August had a lumpectomy and started Radiation in October. I was finished with TX in November of that year. During one of my radiation appointments tears started running down my face and my doctor put in for a referral for a cancer psychologist. It did take a couple months to get an appointment, but I went, listened and shared because my body was healing physically as well as emotionally again.
I wasn't depressed. I didn't want to die, but somehow I frequently thought I would and it haunted me during the night. I started my positive imagery again and utilized relaxing music. I did have to start taking prescription sleep medication,and went through 2 to 3 to find the right one. In March of the next year, I got a " no evidence of disease" So far I beat it. I was grateful! The recovery now continues as my body and soul heal again.
